Today I headed into a refuge tent village with 6 protein bars in my pocket that my son Soren’s class at Bradfield Elementary had given me to pass out. I had hope that I would be able to help people. I felt like I was doing some good at least as I met with the first 6 people.
Then I gave away the last protein bar…..
The 7th person who came and found me had a story about how she was caring for her 3 grandchildren because her daughter had died in the earthquake. My heart broke as she showed us where they were living.
And I had nothing to give her……
We prayed for her and told her that other groups would come but that didn’t provide for her need right then.
As I walked away I was struggling with feeling useless because I had been unable to do much for this village. My 6 protein bars seemed like such small things as I began to think about all the destruction that I had seen earlier.
Today was the National Day of prayer and fasting. Haitian Christians came together in huge groups all over the city to pray for Haiti. We saw 10’s of Thousands of people coming to pray.
I think God is doing something amazing with Haitian churches. They are small but today they made a big impact.
The same happened with my protein bars today. Hundreds of thousands needed food. I was able to help 6 and that was it.
I was just a part…...
Jesus did something pretty significant once with just a few loaves of bread and some fish. It doesn’t take a lot of resources if Jesus is in it.
And you thought you’d have a hard time feeling compassion?
My heart is full of thoughts and prayers for you and your team friend!
I can’t imagine the heartache that you felt as you walked forward with empty hands and many in need before you. I have seen the Lord provide in very miraculous way in the past, in similar (yet very different) situations.
I am praying that the Lord will provide in ways that only He can for those in need in the village, for your team and for those who will continue to come behind you.
Praying for you all as your heart breaks as you see the things that break His!
Thank you. It was tough at the time. Felt better after I procesed it a bit. God is on the move.
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Great Post Lars! Many of us feel this way- we’re praying for you and your team right now!
That was a beautiful post…and a precious little girl. I’m so glad you’re there and offering what you DO have! Heartbreaking moments though, I am sure. So, so glad you can be there and offer hope! I love you!!!
I know how you feel. Prayin with and for ya dude.