Linear thoughts hurt my brain.

Early on in my life I realized that some peoples brains just worked differently than mine. It was disconcerting to a middle school student to feel like their brain didn’t fit on the “normal” path. Perhaps this is why the musical side of who I was took such a huge precedence over life from 6th grade up until my second year of college. The music had an order to it but it had a much more fluid existence. Both an individualistic pulse and yet at the same time a rhythm composed of many pulses. But, the brain wired this way didn’t allow for a thinking process that made much sense (or was even very useful) so I gave up music. The life I now live both needs “order” and “linear thinking” but at the same time I know that it is something that I have forced myself into. When I preach I want to preach with images, with sounds and even with smells. I want to provide an experience that presents the full gospel but doesn’t fit it into a nice three part plan of existence. I’m not sure how I can spring out of the linear bear trap but I will say that I am looking forward to this part of my life.